Internal Affairs

Let it go. It's over. What you're doing will never amount to anything. I'm not talking about anything substantial, I'm talking about anything AT ALL. 

But what if this time it's different? What if the Law of Attraction actually works? 

Not for this it won't. You can attract all other kinds of shit, but not this. Some things are not meant to be because they are not meant to be. 

The Law of Averages apply. One day there will be one that will work. Until then I will just have to keep my hopes up and optimism up and keep searching. 

You're just coming up with all kinds of weird-ass 'Laws' to justify your thoughts. And each time you fall, you get hurt. Each time you fall you take a longer time to get up. Everything around you will get hurt. Family. Friends. For what? 

For a dream, a dream that one day I will find it. I will find it. I know I will. 

And then what? What will happen then? To what end will you keep destroying what you have around you now to obtain this mythical chalice? Your obsession it's worse than Ahab's. At least he's chasing after something real! 

What is real and what is not? What is humanity and our achievements if not for the dream of the unattainable? 

Everything physically plausible must first be theoretically proven. What do you have that is proven? Where is your mathematical formula? I'm all fucking ears. 

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Nothing. 

Some things are not explainable by calculations. Some things are based on gut feeling. 

What gut feeling? Where is your objectivity? Your common fucking sense? Where is it? What makes you think it will happen at all. I commend your optimism but this is consuming you. It's eating you from inside. You're decaying and it fucking stinks from here.

What if there is a giant pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? 

What if you spend all your life searching for the end of this rainbow and you find a giant pot of cornflakes? 

But what if there is gold? 

There is none you fucking retard! It is as impossible as you waving a wand and conjuring up a freaking dragon! 

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Let it go, dude. Nothing will happen. Not now, not ever. Don't go chasing after white whales. Let it go. Settle for normal and human things instead. 

'Human things'

Yes human things. That's what we are. We're not any better than other living creatures in this world. We have limits too. Do not be so arrogant and put yourself with the likes of Gods.

'Limits'

What are you ready to risk for it? Are you ready to lose everything, including this thing you want so bad? Your judgement is clouded, dude. When you come to your senses you will understand and agree with me. Trust me. Don't go ahead with it. 

I hate it when people say 'Trust Me'. 

It doesn't fucking matter what you hate to hear. This entire conversation is about what you hate to hear. Only a true friend would say things you hate to hear, because sometimes they matter. 

You know how you water a seed, and you keep watering but you can't see the plant bud? What if it was about to bud when I decide to listen to you and walk away? What if I lose out on the single biggest opportunity of my life? 

What if the seed is dead all along? And no matter how long you water, a plant will never emerge? How many years would you have wasted trying to grow a dead plant? 

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Forget about it. Move on. Move along. Find something else. Find something real.